Friends....I need this space to just vent for a moment like this.
Alot of people say that I'm so well put together and have my life all organized...well, right now, I'm not. I'm weary. We've had a great deal of sadness thrown at us in the last couple of weeks...and although most of it does not closely effect our immediate family, I am feeling weighed down by the sheer sadness of it all.
This last week has been filled with a detached retina (my dad), a dear college friend losing her spouse quite suddenly, my best friend's dad fighting stomach cancer, THIS, a friend who's daughter has a nasty stomach virus, and on top of everything else.....we are STILL waiting for order as to our next transfer.
And as I type this, I realize that not a single item on this list of stuff do I have control over, and I guess that is where the sadness lays. I can't reattach retinas, I can't bring back my friends husband, I can't heal cancer, I cannot comfort a sick and lonely teenager in a hospital in Florida, I can not get rid of a stomach virus, and I can't predict the future, so I can't see where we will be stationed next.
Yeah...I know...Let go, and let God. Try it in my shoes for a day, and I bet you can't.
So, I'm apologizing if I haven't spoken to some of you for a few days, not being as chatty on IM, or Facebook, or the phone. I'm just weary. The truth is, I feel helpless in these situations so I'm throwing myself into projects that can make someone feel better. I'm quilting for a friend in a nursing home, making baby blankets to share, making dinners for new mothers, and pillowcases for kids in the hospital.
I'll come up for air in a few days I am sure. But for now, I'm just weary, and coping the best I can.