Thinking out loud today....
"Gosh, I wish my kid would just drop out of school so she can stay home and goof off all day. "
I laugh at the thought....a First Grade Dropout.
Homeschooling has it's advantages. The Big Apple is starting to feel jealousy over the Middle and Little Apples and all of the playdates and field trips that they get to go on when the homeschool work is over. Ya think she will ask to drop out of school?
Friday, January 23, 2009
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Liberated!
The people who know me best know about my problem. It's a huge problem, and a debilitating one. There might be a name for my disability, I am not sure what, but for now, I must simple call it this.....I am directionally challenged.
There. I said it. If you don't know what directionally challenged means, I will tell it to you more simply. I get lost. Alot. I can get lost trying to get out of a paper bag. I usually don't know which direction north is, unless it is either sunrise or sunset.
To give you a little bit of background history, I was never good at reading maps in school. I waited until I had graduated from college to get my drivers license because I get lost all the time. While my husband and I were dating, I memorized one single route to visit him at his apartment, and the rest of the time, was content to let him drive to where ever we were going. When we moved to NC, I didn't bother to start exploring the more major towns surrounding our house until my friend from MN came to visit 9 months after we had arrived, simply because I was afraid of getting lost. I was happy to be housebound, until I was so lonely I about lost my mind!
Today, something very liberating happened. And maybe it might not mean that much to any of you, but to me, it's huge. Today, I drove my kids to Houma to go to a dance class. All by myself. Do I get a gold star?
I stood in the driveway this afternoon, having an absolute panic attack about having to take the kids into the big town by myself for the first time, but also knowing that if I didn't get in the van and start driving, that I was going to be late or not even go at all. I was close to tears when my brain froze up and told myself that I didn't even know how to get to the highway. Of course I knew how to get to the silly highway, it was the panic attack that was lying to me. I even knew how to get to the class, my friend Steph had taken me there in her van yesterday, driven me by the exact place where the class was being held, and even showed me an alternative route. But for some reason, all that information in my brain was gone. My husband had even painstakenly writing out driving instructions on how to get there. In my panicked state, standing in the driveway, none of those directions made a lick of sense.
But then something happened. I took a deep breath, gathered my wits, and got in the van. I closed the van door and backed down the driveway. I made it to the highway. I managed to take the correct direction on the highway, and drove to Houma. I took the turns that I needed to make and arrived at my destination without screaming my head off at my kids. And, I knew how to get home when the dance class was over.
I feel so liberated. I know how to get somewhere. And it didn't take me 9 months to do either. Nope. I am a liberated woman now. I know how to get somewhere. I have places to go, people to see, things to do. I really like this feeling.
There. I said it. If you don't know what directionally challenged means, I will tell it to you more simply. I get lost. Alot. I can get lost trying to get out of a paper bag. I usually don't know which direction north is, unless it is either sunrise or sunset.
To give you a little bit of background history, I was never good at reading maps in school. I waited until I had graduated from college to get my drivers license because I get lost all the time. While my husband and I were dating, I memorized one single route to visit him at his apartment, and the rest of the time, was content to let him drive to where ever we were going. When we moved to NC, I didn't bother to start exploring the more major towns surrounding our house until my friend from MN came to visit 9 months after we had arrived, simply because I was afraid of getting lost. I was happy to be housebound, until I was so lonely I about lost my mind!
Today, something very liberating happened. And maybe it might not mean that much to any of you, but to me, it's huge. Today, I drove my kids to Houma to go to a dance class. All by myself. Do I get a gold star?
I stood in the driveway this afternoon, having an absolute panic attack about having to take the kids into the big town by myself for the first time, but also knowing that if I didn't get in the van and start driving, that I was going to be late or not even go at all. I was close to tears when my brain froze up and told myself that I didn't even know how to get to the highway. Of course I knew how to get to the silly highway, it was the panic attack that was lying to me. I even knew how to get to the class, my friend Steph had taken me there in her van yesterday, driven me by the exact place where the class was being held, and even showed me an alternative route. But for some reason, all that information in my brain was gone. My husband had even painstakenly writing out driving instructions on how to get there. In my panicked state, standing in the driveway, none of those directions made a lick of sense.
But then something happened. I took a deep breath, gathered my wits, and got in the van. I closed the van door and backed down the driveway. I made it to the highway. I managed to take the correct direction on the highway, and drove to Houma. I took the turns that I needed to make and arrived at my destination without screaming my head off at my kids. And, I knew how to get home when the dance class was over.
I feel so liberated. I know how to get somewhere. And it didn't take me 9 months to do either. Nope. I am a liberated woman now. I know how to get somewhere. I have places to go, people to see, things to do. I really like this feeling.
Saturday, January 17, 2009
Dear Tooth Fairy,
Dear Tooth Fairy,
Did you hear me calling you? My Mama made me stand outside and scream as loud as I could "Tooth Fairy! I LOST A TOOTH!" over and over again. Mama and Daddy stayed inside the house and laughed really hard. Here is a picture of me screaming for you to come to our house.
I had a nice time making that tooth fairy pillow with Mama too. The blue fabric was from the curtains from my nursery when I was a baby. The fairy pocket, I picked it out because you are the tooth fairy, and I thought that it was pretty.
But Tooth Fairy, I have to ask you. Did you have to leave SO MUCH pixie dust when you came to visit me? My Mama is going to be vacuuming glitter for days! And there is just tons of it in my bed! Did you stop to take a rest in my bed?
See you for tooth #2, Mrs. Tooth Fairy, it's already loose.
Love,
The Big Apple
Friday, January 16, 2009
10 years ago today....
Ten years ago today, I took my father's arm, and slowly walked down the aisle at my church, wearing a beautiful gown, towards my future. My lover, my friend, my husband.
The last ten years have been a blur. A delightfully warm stew pot full of laughter, friends, warm welcomes, departures, babies, deaths, jobs, celebrations, children, dreams, hope, struggle, tears, and blessings.
What a fantastic adventure. I look forward to the next 10 years. And 10 after that, and 10 after that, and...
I love you Eben. Thank you for being mine.
The last ten years have been a blur. A delightfully warm stew pot full of laughter, friends, warm welcomes, departures, babies, deaths, jobs, celebrations, children, dreams, hope, struggle, tears, and blessings.
What a fantastic adventure. I look forward to the next 10 years. And 10 after that, and 10 after that, and...
I love you Eben. Thank you for being mine.
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